To the KING... ♥

T.I.P. is going away for a while...a year and a day to be exact...and it really saddens me to hear this because not only do i LOVE him, but he is truly an example of a life turned around for the better. I respect and admire T.I. not only for his amazing artistry...but as a man...I only wish him the best as he turns himself in to the 'belly of the beast'.

We will miss you, TIP ♥

Now that is one SEXY man....LOL :-)

Anyways...I just want to leave y'all with some of his most inspirational lyrics...

"MISTAKES  made on this road to WEALTH, and I still ain't forgave myself

Ay, What I am today I made MYSELF, and I still ain't forgave myself"

-TIP "Still ain't forgave myself", I'm Serious

fabulously,

                      Akilah :-)

Steal MY Show?!?!...OH HELL NO BISH!!!!

Hmm...let's think of a scenario:

Lets say that i was the LEADING LADY in a fabulous modern day LOVE story on 

BROADWAY... ♥

So as the leading lady it is my job to keep my audience captivated throughout the show's ENTIRETY...but...what if some other chick in the cast comes along in one of the scenes and starts trying to UPSTAGE me...she is shucking and jiving and the audience is just eating that shit up!!! laughing, smiling, and applauding away!!! what do i do??? do i just give up? Do i just walk off the stage and let her have all MY GLORY, MY FAME, MY APPLAUSE??....do i let this bitch who ISN'T the leading lady steal MY show?? the one that i worked hard to get??? or do i stay on stage and shuck and jive and dance and sing LOUDER, HARDER and BETTER than her, until the audience is once again mesmerized by my performance and throwing roses at my feet?

hmmm...I guess the answer is easy when i put it that way...but what if this scenario is NOT about a broadway play at all...what if it is about LOVE...or a RELATIONSHIP???

What do I do if someone has come along and stole what i THOUGHT was rightfully mine? I mean i like the guy...he's not perfect...but i think it could work possibly...but he is paying this other chick some attention now...should i just let it go and move on...or should i fight for it, take back what was mine???

I dunno...something inside of me is saying "just let it go, if it is for you, then it shall be yours..." but on the other hand something inside of me...maybe it's my pride, is telling me to "fuck that bish, she can't steal YO show!!!!"

oh, love ♥

On "Miss Evers' Boys" and Freedom...

I was so blessed to be able to see an AMAZING performance tonight...

it was a play entitled "Miss Evers' Boys" directed by renowned BLACK broadway director, Kenny Leon and starring the lovely, multi-talented Ms. Jasmine Guy!!!

She did effing AMAZING!!! she is DEF one of my idols in theatre...and YES she is from ATLANTA, GEORGIA...so i have EXTRA love for her!!! She is also a TRIPLE THREAT as she can sing, dance (she was AILEY trained!!!) and obviously act. the BITCH is BAD. Im a FAN.

The play was set back in the 1930's-40's when the U.S. government was holding an experiment on four men in Tuskegee, Alabama where they observed the effects that Syphillis had on them...but tricked them and told them that they were being treated. So basically the government sat back and watched these poor, ignorant men die and go crazy from Syphillis while they were watching and taking notes....this is a true story. It hurts me so much to know that they did this...but hey, it's AmeriKKKa... 

But yeah, this play really resonated with me and really got me thinking about my life and my people and what I owe to them and what I owe to myself...Alot of this play dealt with the battle Miss Ever's had to go through by staying true to her work (nursing), and staying true to her people...and the four men from Tuskegee unknowingly sacrificed themselves for their people by participating in the experiment.

hmmm...could i sacrifice MY LIFE, for MY PEOPLE???

would i myself DIE...so that thousands of others could LIVE???

would i be dedicated to my work sooo much that I could deceive people i love so that the wider world could be spared???

I may never know.

but there was an amazing quote from one of the characters in this play...Willie Johnson...after the Syphillis had taken over his body and left him crippled in one leg, his dreams of becoming a dancer in the cotton club in Harlem were shattered...this is all that he had to say:

"MY BODY, WAS MY FREEDOM..."

For Willie, dancing was the only thing in the world that he could do without restraint, in full capacity of himself...his soul was freed through the meticulous motions of his body's own divine creation...and it was taken from him. We must all learn from Willie.

WE must find whatever it is that FREES us and hold onto it for DEAR life.

I found mine...and my grip is getting tighter everyday.

fabulously,

                     Akilah ♥

...it's getting SERIOUS ladies and gents...

So it's DEFINITELY safe to say that i have an OBSESSION with Kanye's love life..

but really, can you blame me??? it's WAAAAY more interesting than mine

;-) ♥

I mean REALLY, guys...i honestly thought that this Kanye/Amber Rose thing was just a phase...you know, a rebound type deal...but they are beginning to look like they are getting serious...I mean, she ain't only just accompanying him at the CLUB and shit no more...Bitch is getting trips to fashion shows, concerts, and PARIS for crying out loud!!! hmmm....a little scandalous if you ask me..

I'll admit...Amber Rose is starting to grow on me..they are so darn FLY together....

I guess you really CAN turn a HOE into a HOUSEWIFE....

we shall see.  

fabulously,

                    Akilah ♥

WHERE OH WHERE....is my DAMN WALLET?!?!?

I lost my GOSH DARN wallet...

who the heck KNOWS where it is....

I cannot concentrate on the BAJILLION things that I have to do right now because I am wondering where the FREAK my darn wallet is...ugh

is it cold?

is it lonely??

is it STOLEN????

sigh.....

oh WHERE, oh WHERE are you my precious wallet.....

I just PRAY that I find you tomorrow.

:-(

(on the real tip though...I have lost my wallet...it is REALLY small and brown and just opens...it only has two compartments which are clear thingies that you put cards in...the only thing in my wallet is my credit card and my license....if you see that junk PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me know...it is DEF vital to my existence....fur rizzle.) ♥

brokely,

                Akilah

NATIVE SON...

For the last couple of months, my life has been CONSUMED by "Native Son", directed by my big brudda Amen Igbinosun...."Native Son" is my theatre debut at Fordham and I am sooooo freaking ecstatic that I was able to be apart of it!! I love my cast...they are all just so freaking TALENTED!! and OMG even though we be in rehearsal from 4:00 in the afternoon until 2:00 the next morning, we still find the bright sight of things and end up acting a damn FOOL and having the time of our lives...it just sucks that it will be over all too soon...(we premiere TOMORROW til sunday)

 But, that is the nature of the theatre I guess...You're together for all of these weeks and months on end...you become a family, and then all of a sudden it's over. back to reality. You may or may not see any of these people who you have created a so called "family" with again...and if you do, it's never the same. The bond that is created can NEVER be duplicated. Maybe that is why theatre stresses living in the moment so much...maybe it's because the moment is all you have....because when it is all said and done and you've taken your bow, received your audience and the lights go down and the set is torn to pieces you essentially have nothing left....nothing physical anyway...The magic of theatre is that it can only live on in our minds and in our hearts...it is our job as the actors to get it there....it is the audience's job to keep it there.

There is this one guy. Rodney. Rodney Mann...or should I say Bigger?? Bigger Thomas, the native son himself...the young man whom this entire play is about. He is the TRUTH. Rodney really surprised me with his passionate portrayal of the very troubled Bigger Thomas. I am literally blown away EVERY NIGHT that he performs. You can tell that this man has truly submitted himself to his character because when he is on stage I can see no one but Bigger Thomas....Rodney Mann ain't no where to be found. It is amazing. Rodney is a novice actor but he most definitely has the potential and the raw talent to go really far with his acting....I am just beyond impressed, and I am glad that I got to witness his progression and...I am a fan. ♥

But yeah...Native Son has truly been an experience for me...Sometimes I feel as if I am going to get permanent wrinkles in my face because of all the crying I do. My body aches, my feet are sore, my eyes have bags under them, and my voice is shot. But i LOVE it. every minute of it. 

Come see it: Friday, March 6-7 at 8pm and March 8 at 3pm in Collins Auditorium

"There was something he KNEW and something he FELT; something the world gave him and something he himself had...Never in all his life, with this BLACK skin of his, had the TWO worlds, THOUGHT and FEELING, WILL and MIND, ASPIRATION and SATISFACTION been together; never had he felt a sense of WHOLENESS."

-Richard Wright ("Native Son")

fabulously,

                     Akilah ♥